Hi there my peoples. Ho there my friends. Sorry I have not written sooner and thank all of you who emailed me saying WTF Lou, what is going on over there? In all honesty I have been totally absorbed and overwhelmed by all that is Afghanistan, by all that is this job, by it all. This is precisely why I have not written in a while. This cultural submersion is precisely why I could not write sooner. Honestly, it has taken me this long to see this place, to feel and understand small parts of the Afghani culture. To be swept up in the world of corporate intrigue, the bullshit that goes with it, and the working scene shenanigans that are necessary to survive. To take my wildest observations and distill them into words that can be placed here would have been fruitless prior to this moment. In general, I have had very little time for myself. In particular, it is taking all my resources to understand this work flow. I still don't grasp much of the nuance yet. I have confidence in my ability to manage the jobsites and do the necessary paperwork. This knowledge takes time and it tests my patience.
The first week of work, was a whirlwind of massive information download and paper chasing which ended in my getting the flu. My first weekend I spent feverish in bed, unable to read because I ached all over. I had a bad fever. Hell, even my eyeballs hurt. My mind rewound on my decision to come here, Lou, your shit is too weak for this. You are going down in the flames of a viral/bacteriological fury. Well, my illness passed and I recovered quickly and started wandering the streets of Kabul looking for power tools with my co-worker Allen. Then just as suddenly I found myself flying to Herat city every week. Herat is in the western edge of Afghanistan, right by the Iranian border, but more on that later. This is where the jobs I am to "supervise" are. I inherited five jobsites that I am supposed to manage. Hmmm. In the city I am even more isolated than in Kabul because there are no other expats out there. None. No expat "nightlife" at all. I hold the weight of the heightened isolation at bay by working until 8 or 9 pm. They serve me dinner at my desk.

Back in Kabul, I finally get my feet under me and I realize the ground here does not shake from bomb blasts. It vibrates with life. It pulses with activity. There is a constant flurry of ongoing activities punctuated by the Inmans call to prayer and incredibly loud low flying helicopters and fast moving Army convoys. Balancing these diametrically opposed scenes is the essence of living here. So welcome my friends and family. Welcome to life in Afghanistan.
Dirty boys ambled around me with their grubby hands out, looking for, well, looking for a hand out obviously. "Gim me daller" they marble mouthed and move in ever closer. "Wutchu boys want now...get outa here." Walt proclaimed with a dismissive wave of his hand. "Go wan, get outa here." My two baggage cart guys who were still arguing in Dari over which one is "officially" pushing my baggage cart, twirl on the kids and say something terse sounding. The kids respond in a smarmy sounding fuck off and slink away immediately accosting the other white people pouring out of the foreboding Kabul International Airport Terminal building. "Gim me daller" I hear in the fading distance. Festooned in peeling blue plastic lettering the terminal building greets me with the "Welcome to Afghanistan" greeting. Well, they must have a sense of humor I muse...now that's another story entirely which I will get to later.
They slung black M-16's around their shoulders like so many backpackers heading for a picnic. They lean in toward me expectantly, like that lineup of important looking limo drivers you see at airports, holding signs for Mr. Albatross and Mr. Perfidy. Yeah, here I was staring at a selection of Halliburton guys who were looking for their new "meat". I knew they were Halliburtonians because they had black "H"s tattooed to the furrows in their foreheads...I mean duh. Me and Walt ambled right up to them while they slid their mirrored sunglasses off their greasy tanned noses. A couple of the larger ones started to extend their hands in greeting as we shuffled past them. I smiled a stupid grin and waded right past them.
"Har ee iz. Where u bin Majeed?" Walt broadcast. "Dontcha love me anymore?" The Afghan smiled wide and extended his hand, then pressed his right hand to his heart in greeting. I smiled back and kind of bowed and gave him the 'Namaste' Indian hand sign. With that we strolled through two more parking lots for the elite commandos and Army brass, past the dirty green Connex guard gate and into to the 3rd parking lot. I was officially out of the airport and standing in the ancient city of Kabul. I was stumped...what is up with all the faded puke green paint?
The fascinating thing about the traffic is the mix of conveyances and the frenzied ballet of cars, trucks, Humvees, man push carts, horse driven carts, bicycles and whacked out pedestrians, who never consider looking for traffic before stepping off the median. It is really odd to watch, but it seems that the walkers are startled and surprised when they see a car barreling down on them. Their look is kind of like, "Where did that thing come from and why is it in my way?"
Oh, there is one significant detail that prevents the driving frenzy from turning into a crash test dummy testing grounds. Afghan law apparently states that if you maim someone in a traffic accident, you are responsible for them and their family until they get better. If they cannot get back to work you must pay to support them for the rest of their lives. If you kill someone, you must support the deceased family forever. That is if and when you get out of jail. The powers that be in my company, Ti, will not let us drive...ever! Cause for immediate termination. On a more positive note, I have only seen one semi serious wreck here in 4 weeks. Everybody was fine, the totaled car was being pushed off the road. Forget insurance, drive responsibly or you become the responsible party. Sounds simple enough.
My living situation is larger than a dorm room and smaller than a decent hotel room. Some of my co-workers have bigger rooms, the bastards. Some have attached bathrooms and some have walk in closets with doors to outside balconies. Right now I am on the third floor balcony, taking in some afternoon sun with my friend Ruppert. I am on the 'beach' which I have taken to calling the third floor balcony. This is as close to a beach as we are going to get for a while I think. I imagine importing a couple of tons of sand, a couple of umbrella tables and plastic palm trees. I imagine huge pineapple rum drinks and a pool. I imagine I am in Paris sometimes too. A man can dream.
Dennis the architect gave me the 1 hour tour and introductions to the 5 floors of people working for the company. His floor is "Design" down on the first, with my friend Jeff Ruppert (who turned me onto this job, is currently on vacation in the states, priceless). Construction (my department) is on the 2nd floor while Logistics & Procurement are on the 3rd floor. The 4th floor is Quality Control, Estimator and Finance. Well that is what the placard says, "Estimator", not Estimating Department or some corporate sounding title. The 5th floor is Upper Management and Chief of Staff Ali, a very "trendy, bright young Afghan man". The basement is reserved for the mole men from IT. Dennis takes me on the roof and we gaze upon our domain. "It is a little hazy out today." I observe. "No, it is really kinda clear out today. Look we can actually see the mountains." states Dennis in all seriousness.
I am set free from "Dennis the Orienteer" (I miss him already) and I wander onto the Construction floor and introduce myself. Hmmm, there is no boss to "show me the ropes" (he is in the states right now) I find no emissary, no hand pumping human resources glad-hander who is ever so excited to parade someone new around. Not even a person hanging back on the horizon. This is the moment when I realize that I am not going to go through any more of an orientation. That was it. I was just "orienteered" and now I am on my own. Literally. You want to hear about what it is like for me to work in an office. Stop giggling. An office where I am not the the grand pooba? Well too bad. I am not going to talk about it. Not now. I will save that tiny tidbit of vicarious experiential-ism and share that whole exiting monologue with you later, because right now, I absolutely have no clue what "the office" means. So I find myself standing there, totally suited up with my "brand new computer briefcase" dangling uselessly from my hand, and I have nowhere in particular to go. There is no office door with my name on it. No coffee mug presentation. I take a cautious step forward. Welcome to "work" in Afghanistan Lou.
I say hello and smile at everybody I see. They all stand up and mumble softly, and put their right hand on their heart. I take this greeting in and mimic the hand movement. After shaking five or six hundred Afghanis hands, I ask the first white guy I see where I might find my desk. (and my new life by the way) He looks at me with that certain far away gaze that speaks volumes...I thank him quietly and wade into "Lou's Life in Office-the Prequel". More later on that.
So, "How is it going?" you all are asking. I will attempt to describe the indescribable. I will bring you here vicariously if you like. Five weeks into this lifestyle and I am getting my head around the overwhelming demands of my work. It is constant, relentless and work travels uninvited to the lunch table and our nights out. I have found some solace in the relationships I am making with both the Afghans and the expats. I have also found some tremendous weirdness and constant friction running rampant throughout this whole scene. Go figure. People are who they are, including myself, wherever you live. By accepting this, what is, I am allowing myself to fully experience this incredible adventure through my Cuban Eyes.
Thoughts of all of you friends and my dear family remind me everyday what a phantasmagorical life existence I have enjoyed prior to this...so somehow in the middle of this cacophony, I am remembering how lucky I truly am. In fact, last night I paraded about like a drunk monkey in a set of Afghan made chain-saw leather chaps...yes, somebody had the red "record" button on, thank god. Somewhere, I believe the production of Robin William's "Gooooooooood Evening Afghanistan!!!" is starting. People, I guess some things never change. Fierce hugs and huge kisses to you all. You are in my dreams and in my mind...
7 comments:
Wow. great reading!!!! I've missed your posts! The pix are great--I figured out to double click them for size. I guess the city is more modern than I thought--seems things have gone more "vehicle" since our trip to Indian not so many carts and animals?? I hope to talk with you this am, so much love to you, we all miss you also, hug yourself and think of me, and I'll do the same and think of you!! Trice
I couldn't help but notice that Herat is heart respelled. Thank you for updating and filling in the blanks (stares and all).
It seems that time keeps moving and the light dusting of snow reminds us that we live at 8500+ feet. The nights remain cool and the days leap up to 60+ or - and we keep wearing our flip flops hoping to intice the sun god into heating things up a bit.
Peace to you,
Hugs, Aileen
About the spelling of Herat. When I first got here they gave me a PC to use with Windows 7 OS. Everytime I would type "Herat" Bill Gates would reach his stubby fingers out through the screen and "correct" the spelling to "Heart". So every email, report or mention of "Herat" is spelled "Heart". KInda sweet, kinda pisses you off. I made them get me a MacBook Pro. I do not have the spelling "correction" problem anymore!
Anonymous ladies, thank you for chiming in. It continues to snow in the higher mountains here which I get to see why I fly back and forth to Heart, er, oh wait, I mean Herat!!! LOL
Good reading Lou - it's nice being able to travel vicariously and inexpensively. Hummingbirds are back. - Cathy K.
Wow, first of all, I hope you are keeping all this to make to compile into a book when you are done. Chaos can only work well for those of us who are slightly or lots weird before we reach it. I have complete faith in your ability to handle it and make it your friend. Keep the descriptions coming.
Louis mi amigo! I really hope you compile your experiences to a best seller someday. I laughed and cried. Well done and a very descriptive, fun read. I believe I can speak for many here...We are proud to have you as the Colorado ambassador of light, humor and love.
Know you are missed and loved and look forward to seeing you in August!!
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Lou dear one. Reading your very wonderful accounts of your life there makes me feel at once very very near to you....like in the same room....and then very very far away. Feels like kind of an ache. I send my love . Hope you can feel that. It comes with a big old hug. I like your short hair cut....just another Lou personality. When in August will you be home? Am wondering about time at the ranch around the campfire...can you hear the sounds of the creek and the crackling of the fire? I can and I am wishing to be there with you and Trece and Nat and Max.. First week in August taken by Navy grandson Chad.... Love again. Take care of yourself...and do what Mary says...OK?
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